Meeting with the Fertility Specialist

Today I had my meeting with Dr. Hatasaka at the Reproductive Care Center in Sandy. Jon was home with the bubs. Dr. Hatasaka was extremely warm, kind and informative. We went through my history, labs and tests, as well as Jon's test. Then he went into the steps he wanted to take on my case. This is where for me where it got pretty extreme. Because I have had slightly elevated prolactin for a while (at least the past 5 years), a slightly low functioning thyroid (genetic) and the ability to excrete liquid from my lady melons (which is not the case anymore after I doubled checked), he was concerned I might have a small tumor on my pituitary gland, which regulates the prolactin level in the body. If I did have a tumor it would be BENIGN and NOT removed because they are very, very, very small and the slightly high levels would be treated with medication. The tumor would have to be confirmed through a very costly MRI. I asked if they could just provide the medication since the the tumor would not be removed anyways and he said no. He then wanted me to repeat all my blood work with an additional panel being sent to a specialty lab in Massachusetts to check my ovarian reserve and a pelvic ultrasound. In addition he wanted to repeat Jon's semen analysis with his expert. As I sat listening to his plan, I started to cry. I so appreciated him being so incredibly thorough, however it was so overwhelming. I decided I wanted to talk to Jon before proceeding. After I left the office, I sat in my car and let myself feel frustrated, sad, overwhelmed and anything I wanted to feel. Then I called Jon and I couldn't hold myself together, so I cried again. When I got home I reviewed the notes the doctor sent home with me in addition to the discussion I had with him. At that point, I told Jon I just needed to have a little time to decompress and digest everything. I went in our room and tried to think through it all. After many more tears, thoughts, prayers and later discussion with Jon, we decided we are not quite there yet. I know we are on our 16th cycle but mentally it's too much. We were honestly hoping to go in and be able to proceed with the IUI. And when the possibility of the procedure became a month or two off at the least and many more tests and $ off, we felt  so incredibly defeated. So with that we've decided to find a middle ground. We are going back to Dr. Ollerton at Valley OB for my IUI. I feel so comfortable with Dr. Ollerton and I am going to attempt to be less sensitive and more proactive with my care. At this point, I am so hoping and praying for my 2nd miracle baby. But like Jon keeps reminding me, faith without works is dead. So we will keep doing all we can on our end to get this babes and pray in faith.