Lagoon

 A super fun afternoon with some of our fav people at Lagoon! :) 

 (Jax matching the boys's shirt was not planned but oh so cute!)

Tulip Festival @ Thanksgiving Point

Nothing better than sun, pretty flowers and an afternoon with my boy running through the grassy fields at Thanksgiving Point gardens. Bless everyone that got to "experience" the gardens WITH us! Ha!!! :) Love the craziness that is my boy. 

Loving the bridges.

The bubs running through the grass fields. 

Oh how he likes to chase the geese, birds, ducks, pretty much anything he can find. 

Loving the fishies. 

Showing a couple his tulip power. 

Feed the hulk or he gets very angry! ;) 

Little dude could have played in the fountain forever

"Walking" also known as running in our house, up the stairs. 

Feeding the hulk....again!

Headed back to the car on the shuttle. Much better than walking. We did that to get there and it was a brutal long walk! Lesson learned. If they offer a shuttle....TAKE IT! :) 

"Tulip Power" 

So the story behind tulip power. Jax is not a huge fan of things staying on his hands. He doesn't like them to be dirty or have food on his hands. So when they stamped his hand for admission into the tulip festival he was not the biggest fan. I noticed it was a tulip and decided to turn it into tulip power. I gave him a fist bump and we turned it into tulip power and well it stuck. It's pretty dang adorable coming out of his mouth! :) 

Tiny Moment - Oh the Drama of Dad Going to Work

This is what happens when someone wakes up from his nap and HIS dadda has already gone to work. Saddest boy in town right here!!! 

Tiny Moment - Go Dodgers

Jax loves baseball hats. People always ask me how I get him to wear his Yankees hat. I always say the same thing, I don't get him to wear it, he asks to wear it ("I hat"). And today Jon got him a LA Dodgers hat to go with his Yankees hat. SO CUTE!!! :) 

The Anxiety of Planning

Because we chose to not do an IUI this month I knew there was a very, very, very slight chance I was pregnant. So when I started my cycle 4 days late, I still wasn't surprised or sad. I'm not going to lie, this month was a nice break! I didn't have to stress about peeing on sticks, avoiding caffeine, scheduling the procedures, worrying about the time post procedure, fighting the mind games of being pregnant or not, etc., etc. I felt normal again, I felt like me. Like the consuming weight of all this infertility CRAP was lifted, even if just temporarily. The relief was nice! So when I started my cycle, I felt like the weight of everything came crashing back down on me. I suddenly felt stressed and overwhelmed. What was our plan going to be this month?  Do we need to do a HCG trigger shot? Can Dr. Ollerton even prescribe the trigger shot? What if I have triplets?!!? (twins sure, great.....triplets, no thank you) Will Jon's count be normal after his T-shot mishap? Should we switch to a RE? If we switch will they make me repeat all my tests and get a MRI like the last one I had a consultation with wanted me to?!!? Will we get a positive OPK this month? Will I ovulate on the weekend? If I ovulate on the weekend will I be able to get all my appointments set up? What if I bleed like crazy with my IUI like last time?!? Did that affect the results? Do I have good eggs? What if I have bad eggs?! What if I never get pregnant again?! These are all the questions that came crashing down on me the minute I started my cycle. I am really starting to miss my month off. :) But the show must go on and we have to keep swimming. Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming.