Monday, May 26, 2014

The Second IUI

Here is the story of our second IUI........
This month I did a lot of research in preparation for our second IUI and asked Dr. Ollerton's office and specially him, if they would be willing to do a monitored and triggered IUI cycle. This requires the Clomid, trans-vaginal monitoring ultrasounds to monitor the follicles (or egg sacks) and a HCG trigger shot to ensure the egg(s) release. After Dr. Ollerton consulted with a fertility clinic he felt comfortable with proceeding with the monitored and triggered IUI cycle. I received the message that it was a go and was super stoked!!!! 
First scan: 05/09/14 (CD9) 
We have two good size follicles, one dominant in size but still too early for the trigger.
Saw a double rainbow on the way home.....hoping that's a good sign! :) 
Second scan: 05/12/14 (CD12) 
We have two BIG follicles (one is 22mm and the other is 19mm). Ready for the trigger but advised to trigger on day 14, but told to continue OPKs to ensure we didn't miss self ovulation.
The next morning (CD13), I got a positive OPK in the morning. So I picked up my trigger shot prescription and had my sister, Brooke, administer it to ensure my body released the eggs. Huge needle required to go into the muscle for shot, no beuno but my sissy did a rocking job! :) 
This month's new addition to the fertility.The trigger shot, evening primrose and a cranberry probiotic. 
Day of IUI 2 (CD14) 
Just so happened that Dr. Ollerton was the doctor on call and was able to perform the IUI. My cervix proved to be stubborn again and required the teneculum for the procedure. Which resulted in quite a bit of bleeding again but not as much as a last time. Jon's count doubled which was amazing news after the T-shot mishap! 
Lying on the table thinking happy baby thoughts. Lots and lots of happy baby thoughts. 
Well fast forward to cycle day 26 and unfortunately the IUI failed. It failed. I have to remind myself the procedure failed....I didn't fail. I didn't fail. It is no less painful than last time. It might be even more so because so much more went into this one. The scans, the trigger shot, the medication for Jon. And even with all of that it didn't happen. Our miracle didn't happen, it didn't come. The ache just grew deeper and pain stronger. I just have to remember to have hope when it feels so hopeless. Because right now it feels so beyond hopeless! After a lot of discussion, we decided to take the month off because honestly I don't have it in me to go through everything again. And I still need to convince my doctor to do one more IUI round before making me go to a fertility specialist. I'm honestly looking forward to our month break. It will be nice to not have to FOCUS on it and just enjoy our June. :) Find the silver lining :). 

1 comment:

MaDeb or Deb said...

My heart aches for you and I can kinda a tiny bit feel your pain! I know its an ache that is so hard to explain but is so real! I think the silver lining in this for now is that adorable little Jaxson. They don't come any cuter or with that awesome personality! Sometimes we have a hard time understanding why God just can't give us a baby and answer our prayers now!!! Hold on to that little mustard seed of faith and it will grow with love and understanding. It will inspire you and your doctors to answers you need for your future family. I love you and your little family so much and pray everyday for peace and comfort in your life!