Unfortunately third time for IUIs was not our charm and lucky left did not come to be. Today my vicious cycle began. I really did think this cycle was going to work. We had all our ducks in a row. Unfortunately I knew a week after the IUI that the procedure didn't work. My body amped up for my upcoming cycle as it always does. I wanted to scream, throw things, and give up. But I did none of those things. I cried to myself for a minute and then just prayed for peace. The peace came as it always does. No answers or assurances, just peace. And I had to make peace with the fact that my full room during the procedure was there for a much different reason than I assumed. While they are supporting my on my journey, they cannot change it's course. So while I take a moment to mourn the loss, I will rely on the peace and know that things always work out.
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