It's On Like Donkey Kong!!!

So here I go.....I am going to lose 10 pounds in 1 month. Wahoo! I am hoping that by posting this I will hold myself a little bit more accountable. Jon is also doing my challenge with me which helps! :) (Love him!) Now I don't have a scale but I am pretty good about guess-timating based on how my clothes fit. I have been wanting to get in better shape for about 6 months now and I can't keep putting it off until "tomorrow". So here I go!!! I do have one thing up my sleeve that is going to make this feat a little easier. My sweet husband has been saving what we used to spend on our gym membership since we cancelled it and got me (us ;)) an elliptical! He knows I have been really down because I am not happy with the weight I have gained over the past 6 or 7 months and is very supportive in me wanting to get it off. So there will definitely have been changes in my diet too, as well as actually exercising. I am limiting my sugar in take to one treat a week (because I am a realistic lady and I know I need one fix a week....yup I am like a sugar addict....bless me, this is going to hard!). And tonight I sat down and wrote out my menu (I haven't done that since probably before I was preggers with Jax....that was so long ago, my babes in 20+ months!). This month should be an adventure and I will just have to find my inner self control because I usually suck at that!!!! Now let me put a disclaimer on this....I know I will totally cheat on the 4th of July because I am a realist! :) But other than that I will stay strong! :) Well good luck to me, I am off to cook chicken for the week!

Shoe Shopping with the Bubs

Anticipation of Tears

* Forewarning it might be too graphic for some. It uses girly terms :)

Sometimes I hate knowing my body so well. Knowing it to the point where I can anticipate my tears I promised myself I won't cry. This is how my months' anticipation has been going......
Right after possible conception, I am always filled with nothing but hope. I keep thinking, oh there could be baby magic happening in there! :) After almost 7 months of trying I probably shouldn't be, but I naively am. The one time I am not a realist! ;) I start to dream of a sweet little babes that I thought would be apart of our family by now (in the sense of a bump). A week and half goes by and I start to feel some mild cramping and breast tenderness. I get a little excited, convincing myself it's implantation cramping but in the back of my mind I know my body and I start to worry. I keep thinking, no, please, no. My breast tenderness starts to subside as my possible period start draws closer. I keep hoping it will come back. A couple of days later, I start to bleed. I want to convince myself it's late implantation bleed. But soon I can't convince myself of that. I start to plead to my Heavenly Father to save a baby that was never in there. And with that my anticipated tears come, along with a strong dose of heart ache. Then I make peace with the fact that I have known from moment I started to cramp that it wasn't going to happen this month. I so badly wanted it to be this month. I wanted to not feel betrayed by my body.  I wanted all the charting and OPK tests to help this time....and none of it did. I wanted to not feel like a failure. So while knowing my body is a good thing, sometimes anticipating the tears is the worst part.

Tiny Moments - It's the Little Things

I love how content this kid is playing with just a water bottle and metal basket. Yup :) But for Jax it helps his entertainment level when he can steal MY ( ;) ) water bottle. Oh wait, with Jaxson nothing is mine anymore. Every thing is ours, except when it is his....that's just his ;) Love my true-to-the-t toddler!

But at the end of the day, he is such a sweet boy and a good sharer :). Love my good boy! :) 

Tiny Moments - Moment of Calm

I love the moment of calm right after Jax wakes up in the morning or after a nap. The moment he will snuggle baby George and his let his momma sneak in a couple extra kisses. :) 

Tiny Moments - Sometimes In Life You Just Need Two Monkeys or Three

This kid loves his monkeys, A LOT! And with that love, sometimes the need to have all of his monkeys go on his adventures is just a natural thing. :) That little smirker kills me! 

Tiny Moment - Jax's Great Adversary

The Spoon!!! :) 

And this is how is always end up! Bless him and me! ;) 

Tiny Moment - Starting Dips Early

Apparently my child is starting dips early and on the fridge too! What the!!?!? ;) 

Tiny Moment - Nothing But Cars & Trucks

Story of our day.....EVERY DAY......these days ;) 

Tiny Moments - My Boy

Oh that little face! He looks oh sooooo innocent! :) He tends to be a mischievous little monkey but at the same time he really is my best boy and I am so grateful he is my little buddy. 

Lucky - Father's Day

What a great day! We love our dadda and loved celebrating how special he is to us! Jon truly is such an amazing dad to Jaxson. I love and value the special relationship they have and am grateful for the decision Jon makes daily to be an amazing father. I hope Jaxson will grow up valuing his relationship with Jon and continue to look up to Jon as the type of person to emulate. Happy Father's Day to our special guy! :) 

(*Be prepared for a picture overload (I know nothing new!) because I couldn't pick my favorite!) 

(This one might be my favorite!) 

(or this one....)

(or this one....) 

(or this one....) 

(or this one...) 

(or this one....)

(or this one. I am pretty sure I love all of them! Love my boys!)

(Oh wait did I make Jon and Jax change back into their church clothes after Jax's nap so I could take cute pictures for Father's Day.....yup pretty sure I did! :))

(I couldn't do this one in black and white because it wouldn't do Jax's cute father's day present justice. I might have done the word taping but bubs did the painting....so cute. Love me some pinterest ideas!) 

My hubs requested hamburgers and tres leches for his father's day meal. I threw in a little brazilian lemonade as a surprise.....so yummy :). 

We love, love, love this guy!!!

Jon's Father's days from the past..........Father's Day 2012

I am also grateful for my own dad. Having Jaxson has allowed me to put myself in my Dad's shoes to some extent and find so much more appreciation of his love and sacrifice for me. Being a parent is NOT easy! I was not always the easiest child growing up. And like most parents and children, we have had our ups and downs but through it all I have known my dad loves me and I am grateful for that knowledge. I am grateful for the life lessons he taught and how to this day he encourages me to be the best version of myself. Sometimes growing up allows us to realize the blessings of our parents in our lives and that has definitely been the case with me and my daddy-o. ;) Love him :) 

I'm also grateful for the father figures I have in my life. While my mom didn't remarry till I was 19 and living in Utah on my own, Rick had no problem treating me like one of his flesh and blood children and loving me as such. Divorce is crappy, that's a fact. However, I am so grateful for my mom's choice in a companion and what a wonderful addition he is to our family and to my life. 

Tiny Moments - A Normal Day

This is just another day in the life of Jaxson Clark Conley.....He tends to be a little crazy! Driving his mom crazy in the process. But I still love him!!! :) 

Tiny Moments - If I Had A Girl

Jon is going to kill me for posting this but wouldn't we have a cute girl! ;) Haha, this is what happened when Jax stole my headband off my head! I made him wear it....I'm such a nice mom. :) Notice how I am holding his hands, he was not into being my surrogate girl! ;)

Park City Swimming

Fun, sun, water and family.....pretty much nothing better! We love a little swim time with the Watty Watsons, Cook and her ladies and of course MaDeb! :)